Yes I enjoy drawing very much , but I don't really draw much , and I don't do much when come to design
BUT, I always have big ideas , crazy ,perhaps its the more better word to describe
the problem is , I always come to a knot when I try to express my ideas through real work
yea, I can't draw out whats inside my mind often, for now.
I had regret for choosing science stream in secondary school
I end up getting not very good result in my exams
well my SPM result not yet come out , but I have feelings that it will just be better abit from what I get in Trial, which is 5A's ,some B's C's and Add math G =.=
I screw up all science subjects and counting just ain't my thing
so, I'm comfirmed that I won't even step a foot inside those area of study in college
for me, I believe that if we have big interest in something , we will able to achieve excellent in that something more easily compare to those we do not have interest in
so, I really think that parents nowadays have to support their children in what decision they make for their future
hello , its their own future there
back to the topic ,
now, I'm having difficulty in choosing the right college for myself
I'm going for interior design
and the choice of mine is The One Academy(TOA)
why I choose TOA?
1st,I recieved many compliments from my friends who have brothers or sisters studied there
2nd, I always saw & heard students from TOA winning prizes in many competitions from the news
not 1, not 2 but tons of it
3rd, many of my parent's friend's children further their studies at TOA and most of them get very good job with high salary now, well of course,my parents told me that
HOWEVER
with those good quality given by TOA, TOA is very well-known among both local and international students
It's tuition fees...are OMFG high
almost double the price of the other colleges
although there are loans, and scholarships available
but there're still many effort to put in achieving the big amount of money
my family is neither rich nor poor, its just okay-level
however the one thing that is grateful about, is we have rich relatives, though not very close one
I'm quite worry if I study at TOA, my parents have to suffer from working overtime to earn money
to support my tuitions fees ,expenses and to pay back loans.
So, I found an alternative college, which is good...not bad according to their brochures...paper thingy statements they gave
what I worry is ,its all just empty promises from the college so that students come to them
its funny that the college just located opposite of TOA
like, its meant to be recieve students who can't afford the fees of TOA>.<
I'm sorry if I offended anybody , its just my side of view and I will not mention the name of the college
My parents keep tell me to go for it (TOA) , don't worry about the $$ they will find a solution to it
but still, I'm worry because, I'm the oldest kid in family and this mean its the first time for my parents to do these things
I'm afraid that somehow my parents could not afford it anymore and I have to stop halfway
Anything is possible you know...
and I couldn't bear to watch my parents suffer so much, which they probably have to 省吃俭用(save whatever thing they used) everyday to support the fees
But, something tell me that this will only last for a while IF i choose to study at TOA
Deep inside my heart, I believe that if I get the best education , I'll bloom into the best ,I mean , bloom into the best that I can be
but I'm not sure, what if I can't?
what if I can be the best of me too if I choose the alternative college?
Its a big decision , decision of route towards the future
I'm totally confused right now and to make this condition more worst. . .
I somehow get selected for national service WTF
and NOT the first batch WTH
and I don't know what batch will I be in and plans just stuck half way.
Well I can't further my study before I finish my ns
I know there are some kind of offer letter from college that will help to skip ns
but I still have to go back to ns after I finished my studies=.=
and by that time I will be about 20++ something
and most of the participants will be 17+ something
age really matters when comes to communication. . . thing =.=well. . .
if I couldn't communicate and integrate among the people there I might end up getting bullied=.=
imagine a 20++ year old girl getting bullied by a bunch of kids
yea. . . damn "nice" view F*=.=
I have a plan, which I don't know if its a good one
Here is it :
I'll start my studies next year
I'll work this year , earn some money first and settle the ns thing
Interview for Genting's job I think? Higher salary. . .even if its just few hundred ringgit
the extra few hundred ringgit matters ! to me!
I can afford a better laptop for that =.=
and better accommodation perhaps =3=
So, if anyone please, can give me a good advice or encouragement or discouragement or whatever it is
please leave a comment below
no matter who you are , friends or passers-by
your words might change my mind and make my decision or plan a better one
Thank you .
:)
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